Thinking About You - A Grandmother in Pain

Your Birthday Month, Aabi

Dear Aabi, this is your special birthday month, and I can't help but reflect on the joy we felt during your 2nd birthday celebration last year. The excitement in your eyes, the warmth of the laughter of your Mom, Dad, and Didi, we, your naanu naani, were here and were able to create unforgettable memories.

But as life teaches us, moments are fleeting, and you have slipped away from us in the blink of an eye, hiding somewhere we cannot reach.

Each day feels like a struggle to maintain normalcy, yet it often feels like a slow death. Every morning, we wake up to the painful realization that this day, like the last, is a day without you. We miss witnessing the new activities you would have learned and the moods you would have brought into our lives. The helplessness I feel when your Mom asks, “Mumma, where has my baby gone? How can I live without her?” is overwhelming. I wish I had the answers to ease her heart, and I pray every day that she finds a way to navigate this world without you.

Walking for Aabi

But in the face of this heartache, she has gathered some courage. This birthday month, she has embarked on a journey called "Walk for Aabi" through the Red Nose Foundation. With each step she takes, she carries you in her heart, breathing you in with every thought. We have all joined her in this walk for you, Aabi. Your naanu (grandpa) and your maamu (uncle) are walking every day to share the feeling and raise awareness and support.

And as I walk, I can feel you beside me, walking and talking, holding my hand with an invisible string. I can almost hear you whispering, “Naani, I love you,” accompanied by that cheeky smile of yours that lights up my soul.

The Power of Imagination

In these moments, I truly understand the meaning of imagination. It allows me to feel your presence around me, bringing peace to my heart and lightness to my mind. I feel detached from my struggles and wholly connected to you.

Thank you, Aabi's Mom, for giving us these beautiful moments and the strength to carry on.

We love you endlessly, Aabi, my little koala, all the way to the moon and the stars.

I dedicate my walks, my days, nights, and all moments to my lovely Aabi. Hoping her charm, softness, and love stay in this world forever.

For all of you who have lost your precious pearls, feeling lost and defeated, let us all walk to them to continue where they left off, dedicating our lives to them.

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