Love Is Forever - Just Like You

My darling daughter, Aabi.

It is August, the month when our lives changed forever. We welcomed you, a beautiful baby girl, who completed us most profoundly. We became a family with two incredibly lovely girls. Times were happy, life felt fulfilled, and each day brought so much to look forward to.

If only there were a hint that all this was timed. Although we know our lives are finite, our time is limited, and our future is uncertain, we forget about the uncertainties and the possible horrors amidst the beauty of life. That is what both you girls made our lives - beautiful and worth everything. We never took the time to sit back and think about the unexpected. Who would?

When you are blessed, you thank the lord for the blessings, and keep living the gift of life.

Because it is worth all the gratitude we can convey.

Today, this August of 2025, we sit empty-handed, my darling. Your birthday is here, but you are not. We have wishes, we have blessings, we have gifts, we have time, and we have endless love to offer, but we don't have you with us in this form. Living without you in the days, the weeks, the months after you left has been the most difficult of tasks. Simply getting up to function through the day seems like a struggle that tires us to the core every single moment of the day. Witnessing life without you has been painful. This pain is not something we can share or want to get out of. It is all the love and all the gratitude with all the moments that have been and would have been. So, how can we let go of this?

We are learning each day to walk, to talk, to be us again. To be us, with you in a way nature didn't teach us. Usually, the ways of nature are what teach us to be, as individual people and as parents. Having to see you go is not a natural way of life. So the fight is against nature, against order, against life. It is tiring. It is draining. We are so sorry, sweetheart, that we couldn't keep you for longer. That this world did not have enough power to keep a beautiful soul, a precious baby like you, for longer. I am forever sorry for this situation.

We are learning to walk with you in this way now. We hold you within us now. There is no greater distance that this life can create between us. There can be no more separations than what is. We are learning to feel together despite the distance. Learning to feel you in ways no parent or sister would naturally know how to. Learning to communicate with you through nature - the cruel, bashful nature with its ways.

Sometimes it is excruciatingly intolerable to experience these, to understand that this is all we can make of. Yet, we are left with no options.

We crave to decorate the house with a new number balloon, with colorful decorations, bake cupcakes, count candles, and arrange a celebration. We will stop counting now. Nothing ahead of the number chosen for you. To be two forever, for that will be your number, and our favorite one. We will stop decorating the wall or the room, but look for a rainbow instead, to let nature do its bit of the decoration across the sky for you. We will stop celebrating in regular ways, but think of the beautiful moment on this day when we got to hold you in our arms, making it the celebration of a lifetime. Sweetheart, your day will always be filled with love, wishes, moments of happiness, probably teary now, yet most precious, like you.

We will ever be filled with gratitude for this day, with the longing to be with you on a fine future day. I want to send to you, through this dedication, all the love we have in us. Your sister, your papa, your mumma, and your family are ever grateful to have you as a part of their lives. We are forever in love with you, your gentle touch, your warmest smiles, your sweetest mischief, your loveliest cuddles, your cutest moves, and your ever-twinkling eyes that have shown us a light so bright that we seem to have seen all the beauty of the world in them.

As a mother who is privileged to be yours, the day I saw your beautiful face for the first time will be the day that defines me forever. I am so proud to have held you two lovely sisters in my arms, to have seen you bond, grow, play, enjoy, fight, and now stay together in infinite ways. My eyes will forever hold you two in one frame, and all I ask for is for both of you to watch over each other.

Aabi, you are a beautiful soul, and you spread love, happiness, and joy wherever you are. Keep doing that, my baby girl. Keep shining bright. Keep jumping and playing in rainbows. Those twinkling eyes of yours light up whatever they look at. That smile of yours is infectious in a way that brightens not only the room but entire lives. Even the plants you played with bloomed best around you with your soft cuddles and joyful watering.

We will try to share your aura till we are here and make efforts to spread your joy as much as we can, for it is what this world will always need. Happy Birthday, darling. Sending you so much love on your birthday, my Aabi. This is the day we chose each other and will continue to do so infinitely. Keep showering your love from beyond the world, choose us to be yours across lifetimes, for we will always and always choose you! Thank you, baby doll.