So Little and for Such Little Time

When a baby is born in your house, everyone gets a new life. There is so much to look forward to. Every moment seems to be a significant something. Then suddenly, all of this comes to a halt. That little life, which was only for a little while, takes away a significant part of everything.

Babies and children bring an energy that embodies life itself. Curiosity, love, and learning together create so much. The house is always alive with something. New sounds, new activities, new expressions of love. The experience is so exhilarating that we barely have time to absorb the feeling. Everything during those moments is fast-paced and precious.

I wish I had realized how fleeting and timed such moments can be. Before we start to get accustomed to everything happening around us, a moment arrives that wraps it all up in a breath and departs. It just leaves. So suddenly. Without notice, without permission, without reason. You are left to absorb all that was and all that will never be again.

Even As Parents, We Don't Own Our Own

Parents, especially mothers, often feel solely responsible for their children. They make every decision with great care, considering every option thoughtfully, weighing all that is, yet these very children are not in reality theirs to keep. I used to read articles and quotes about how brief these moments are, and how quickly they grow up. I wondered if I would ever miss the mess they create, the constant chaos, and the time I don't have for myself. As unfortunately as anyone ever can, I say today that everything passes, and you miss every little bit of it in the worst ways possible.

Change and Loneliness

Today, with my little one gone, I look at my elder child and see how alone she can be. Today I walk on the street and feel so empty without that pram, without that little hand tugging mine, without that little child clinging to me, and without those little demands always coming my way. Today, I feel my home is the quietest and saddest ever. Today I notice how much I enjoyed the noise, how much I loved the tantrums, how much I crave the cries, how much I seek the mess, and how much all so little was everything.

Finding Purpose in the Journey Ahead

There are ways to numb the mind and focus elsewhere. Reading, studying, working, sleeping, eating, talking. Suddenly, everything just numbs you. Nothing seems to bring life anymore. Then, you look at your elder one and your family, trying to find a purpose. Only a purpose can help at this time. Slowly realize that the only task is to create that purpose. With each step every day, the search for a purpose can get you through.

Being Present

Gradually, it sinks in that so little can mean so much and yet last for so little time. Can I afford to overlook or ignore what is here? Is there a way to undo what happened? A faint voice from within answers, No. That quiet voice tries to explain what being in 'the present' means. That I need to move through each moment, each day, with care, holding onto what I still have. Because, at any moment, it could become what I had.

The Value of Little Moments

For all the little things, all the little people, are never truly so little. They are and will always be the treasures one seeks, the most precious gifts one can ever receive.

As love is eternal, it knows no size and has no sense of time. And so, even the brief time they spent with us, their love endures for a lifetime and beyond. This is what is now, and this is what will always be.