A Message of Love

Aaba Paaba

After trying to gather courage for the last six months, I feel ready to collect some words for my dearest Aabu. 

She came into our lives like a breath of fresh air, so unexpected (at least for me), and provided all of us, especially Dishu, with that wonderful moment of having a little baby in her lap. She felt so comfortable and satisfied. The bond they created that day felt timeless. 

Yet, how cruel time can be to snatch away the most precious thing we all had. I can’t express how difficult and draining it is to tell my daughter that all her dreams and plans she had made with Aabi for the future are shattered. How can I make her understand when I myself am struggling to do so? Aarvi, their elder sister, is always the one I love the most and is a role model for both Aabi and Dishu, but Aabi always took my breath away. There was a strong attraction about her. 

Her baby brother Abeer has arrived, and how happy she must be. The feeling of joy seems so far-fetched for me. However, Abeer will grow in a world where he will always experience Aabi among all of us. Dishu has started to do that since the day he was born. She wants to talk so much about her and ask countless questions, and we try to answer as much as we can. Whatever concept she has developed is quite endearing and pure. 

I struggle to find the words to communicate with my closest ones, my sister and Jiju. I just want them to know I’m sorry for not being able to protect them from the pain. If I can’t help, how can I say I love them the most? I feel guilty all the time. I don’t know how long it will take for them to forgive us for what we were and are helpless against. 

I feel it’s just the beginning of tough times for us, but love will always prevail. 

Love you, Aabi, so much. Maamu loves you the most. Dishi talks to you every day, so there’s never a day when we don't miss you because she always keeps you here with us.